em lee.

You are for me

2012-02-11T12:05:00.002+13:00

Yes, You are for me Lord. Thank you for your unconditional love and mercy. :] When I'm feeling down, this song just reminds me of His amazing goodness and how I can always rely and surrender everything to Him.

break me

2012-02-10T23:21:00.001+13:00

I don't even know whether you read this. But if you do, I miss you terribly even though my pride is stopping me from messaging you.

Still alive

2012-02-08T21:01:00.003+13:00

Hello.

Yes, I'm alive. I'm not gonna say "sorry for not updating" because I don't think I have any real followers anyway. It's not like I have a very interesting life or whatever.

Life has been quite good, albeit still feeling a bit dismayed from my KL trip. I won't let it bug me for long (hopefully) but I believe that time heals cuts and wounds.. however the phrase goes. So we'll see how this goes. And yes, I know I need to forgive; I MUST forgive. Sometimes being an adult is not so fun. Sometimes... I would lie down in bed and allow my mind wander and ponder on things that shouldn't need too much pondering because some things... or people are simply just a waste of time and energy. Maybe I'll put it into a song.. aye? *evil smile* xD

Melancholic thoughts aside... my KL trip was not all that bad. There were good things that happened there too. Like my friendship with the crazy Debbie :] Even though we have not kept in touch much since I moved to NZ, we picked up from where we left off. It is so good knowing that some friends are still the same (in a good way) and still share mutual feelings. :] I love you very much! Other good things that happened in KL were some weird yet nice catch-up over dinner with a few of the boys from primary, all whom I haven't met in over 8 years! How time flies :] Shopping was not too bad there too (you might think I'm crazy for saying "not too bad" coz most people would think it "shopping-heaven" if you've lived in places like KK or... NZ :x ) even though I didn't shop much... Just mostly a few lipsticks and glosses from Chanel, nail polish and skin care products from Skinfood, and other cosmetics from Sasa. Didn't buy many clothes, which was rather disappointing because I came back to NZ after a 5-week holiday with the same summer clothes I brought back. Meh. I won't complain too much now about that because I ate lots of yummy food with great company in KL (and KK, ShenZhen, & HK too). After I came back to NZ, I immediately rushed to my bathroom and stood on the weighing scale looking upset when I saw that I've put on a non-shocking 5kgs! All my effort and time spent on the ab circle pro was wasted because I gained more than before I even started working out on the ab circle pro. :[ yeah, that's what you get after not going back to Malaysia after 4 years of living in a deprived-of-good-malaysian-food country. Meh.

Now I made myself hungry by typing about Malaysian food. hmph! >.<

I shall continue my vacation story in my next post because imma omnomnom now... again :D

Unsatisfactory

2011-12-23T06:31:00.003+13:00

One thing I've learnt from this trip back:

When you have been away for quite some time and then return to the place where you thought you belong, you will only then truly know who your real friends are.

It's real sad to think this way, but unfortunately it's true. Sometimes, it's best to expect the worst then only will I not be this disappointed. If only feelings would be mutually displayed.

Oh well. Just have to learn things the hard way but I thank God anyway for those whom He has put into my life before I left for NZ, so that I might learnt not to make the same mistake again. Another lesson lived and learnt.

Up, up here we go

2011-12-17T22:08:00.000+13:00

Gah. I hate packing.

Failed

2011-12-13T23:43:00.005+13:00

Hello!

Yes, I know, I know that I haven't updated my blog for 5 days since my last post but it's okay coz here I am updating :] So shut up and stop complaining.

*uploads first 5 photos*

*enters post title: Graduating from high school*

*waits for 15 mins; "uploading 67%"*

*waits for 10 mins; "uploading 97%"

*rage. cancels upload*

Well well, I guess here's another photo-less post for you. My internet has been real slow and I have about..let's see.. 30++ photos to upload from my graduation dinner so stuff it. Ain't gonna bother uploading photos today. I'll just upload my early Christmas pressie from my Kaima and Kaiye , and my bff Julius :]

lovely gold-framed Ray Ban aviators from sunglass hut! and l'occitane hand cherry scented hand cream from my lovely godparents :]

What a lovely start to Christmas (although I know Christmas ain't about presents but the amazing Jesus)! I have been considering getting a pair of Ray Bans for myself and thought that I would wait and weigh out the pros and cons before rushing into buying one (coz you know... it ain't cheap for a student who pays for her own stuff) but my bff got to it before I can! Thanks so much Juju! :] We have been talking about aviators and stuff coz he was planning on getting Oakleys sunnies until he tried on the amazing Ray Bans and decided to turn his back on Oakleys! Hah! Girls always know what's best :p So yeah! Was real surprised and stoked about this pair of sunnies :] I was also really happy on getting the l'occitane cherry handcream, which I believe is from the Christmas collection or something.. Anyway, if you didn't know, l'occitane has been my holy grail for hand creams because it saved my crackling fingers and hands. It first started with the l'occitane cuticle cream that I bought sometime this year and it literally transformed my nails over night! I never had better looking nails. EVER! Now I have really nice long nail-plates and square nails that I'm super proud of! :] teeehee!

So that's all for now! Will be back for more updates soon! :]

Oh, and counting down to 4 more days :]

Abs

2011-12-08T00:35:00.003+13:00

I just came back from Breaking Dawn and Momo Tea with Bridget not too long ago. It was a great start to my holiday :] Had mango pudding and mee goreng; omnomnom. Then I went on facebook and chillaxed for a bit more before I get started on my work out. But right now, facebook and photos are making me even more lazy than I already am. I'm supposed to be "swinging and swaying the pounds away", as Jennifer Nicole Lee puts it but do I really have to? Nah.

... Well, on second thought, yes, I need to.

Gah. Fats, why are you still sticking with me? :[

It's here.

2011-12-07T14:24:00.003+13:00

I can officially officially officially say that I have finished high school. forever.

and.. 11 days to go! :]

2011-12-05T14:50:00.000+13:00

Oh, and...

13 days to go! :]

Who you are

2011-12-05T14:41:00.002+13:00

Just a little something that I will be blogging about soon once my assignment is finished. Has been on my mind for a bit. Here's a few sentences that I absolutely love and can't get out of my head since the day I heard this song:

"Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart but tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising. There's nothing wrong with who you are."

- Jessie J

RED

2011-12-04T01:32:00.008+13:00

Hah! Told you I'll be back with another post sooner than you think! :]

Anyway, I did not blog or facebooked about me going to dye my hair on Wednesday because I wanted it to be a surprise for people going to the graduation dinner on that night, and it definitely did surprise people! I'm really happy with the result because if you know me, I absolutely love red hair. I have dyed my whole hair red a few times before but they never quite turned out to be the colour displayed on the box due to my black Asian hair and also DIY dye. This time, I decided to dye my hair professionally (because I was officially graduating from college 4 days ago) so that the red can come out just like how I envisioned it, and it did! All the bleaching and waiting for 3 hours was worth it. To be honest, I was quite scared about bleaching my hair because I've heard that it hurts... and it kinda does. It's this burning sensation on your scalp and neck, as if someone lit fire on it. Thank God my hair did not fall out from the bleaching, or else... Nah, don't wanna think about it. Sounds too painful.

If you're wondering what style I did, I went for the half black and half red look. The upper part of my hair black and the bottom half red :] I'll let the pictures do some talking before my rants bore you to death!

Taken at grad dinner :]

Cheers!

Oh, and to end this post I'll link a Malaysian video I found on youtube! So true and funny :] Makes me reminisces on my time back in Malaysia :]

More nails

2011-12-04T00:47:00.010+13:00

Right now, as I'm typing this, I'm yet again attempting my next half-moon manicure. This time I'm experimenting with OPI's Pirates of the Caribbean Collection's Mermaid's Tears (which is also an absolutely beautiful colour on its own!); This colour will be the half-moon on the nail. I'm still unsure of which colour to pair it with from my nail polish collection. Hmmm..

Well, this calls for new nail polish additions :] There are so many that I'm keen for but do not have enough money to buy! It's okay coz when I go to Hong Kong, I will definitely be getting some of my favourite Deborah Lippmann nail polishes since I can't get them in NZ or Malaysia. So excited! I will post a photo of the Mermaid's Tears just in case you're curious as to how it looks like and are too lazy to google it. :] I will also post the Deborah Lippmann nail polishes that I want this Christmas because hopefully, someone out there will get for me xD Yeah, right.. What am I talking about...

PS: I do not have any rights on the photos here. Found them on google images. :]

Here's OPI's Mermaid's Tears

I really really really want this nude colour.

NAKED by Deborah Lippmann.

Deborah Lippmann's nail polishes are just so cute yet sophisticated at the same time in their little square bottles, but one thing I love best from her collection is her glitter nail polishes! I have read and watched various reviews on her products that they are so easily removed! Unlike other brands, even OPI! Who would've thought with the insane amount of glitter applied with just one coat on your nail can be removed so easily when all this while before Deborah Lippmann, we have been proved otherwise! One of the reviews I've watched and read is from The RAEviewer. If you're a beauty product lover like me, you would know who she is! Rae is an amazing reviewer and make up guru. So brutally honest on every product she uses that her viewers won't fret over or buy a wrong product! Love that girl! :] Anyway, I have been ranting too long. I shall let you move on with the following beauties :]

Here are all the glitter nail polish that I want for Christmas this year :]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY by Deborah Lippmann

BOOM BOOM POW by Deborah Lippmann

This is my fav glitter from her!

RUBY RED SLIPPERS by Deborah Lippmann

If you know me, I'm a sucker for red!

GLITTER IN THE AIR by Deborah Lippmann

ACROSS THE UNIVERSE by Deborah Lippmann

One of my top 3 glitter!

Hope this post wasn't too boring :] Will be back for another update sooner than you think!

Countdown

2011-12-03T15:49:00.001+13:00

I can't mention what I'm counting down to but I will, once the event is over and done with!

15 more days! Eeeeeep. I'm so excited!!

PS: If my beloved friends who read this blog (I highly doubt it) knows what I'm counting down to please do not mention it. Thanks :]

Accepted

2011-11-29T00:14:00.004+13:00

This is one of the happiest days of my life! If you didn't know..

I WAS OFFERED A PLACE IN AUCKLAND UNI'S SCHOOL OF MUSIC!!!

I have God to truly thank for because my audition was not a good one, as you might have read in one of my posts below! :]

Anyway, gotta get back to writing my Music Studies essay so that I can get some feedback from Ms. Treneman later (It's 12.20am now).

Goodnight world!

Here's to ending a post with a photo from Songwriter of the Year 2011 Finals :]

tumblr worthy?

2011-11-27T22:14:00.011+13:00

I attempted a burgundy and silver half-moon manicure on Saturday coz I was bored. :]

not tumblr worthy aye? but looks quite good, no? :]

At first, it didn't turn out as well as I'd hoped it would be because I'm an impatient person. One thing bad (to me, at least) about the half-moon manicure is that it takes a few hours (if you wanna be on the safe side to not peel off the polish along with the sticker). I stuck on the stickers when the silver polish wasn't completely dried yet (well, I thought it was). So when I painted the burgundy colour and peeled off the sticker, the silver polish stuck onto the sticker and came off. So I had to repaint the silver on two fingers (thank God I tried it on two fingers only!!) and waited an extra one hour for it to dry up. To make it worse, the nail polish I used was quite sheer and not opaque, so I had to use 4 coats per nail, which meant it took longer time to dry!

Anyway, enough ranting. After a night's worth of back-ache, I thought that it was worth the time and effort, albeit wasn't too fancy of the colour combination because the silver just looked too shimmery (to me) against the burgundy polish! But the Skinfood's silver was the only silver I had so I just stuck with it. Good experimentation though, so that I now know not to use shimmery silvers with the Skinfood burgundy polish I have. This also means time for a new silver polish! ;] teehee!

So many things to do, so little time

2011-11-27T17:54:00.004+13:00

Various things running through my head right now. Mixed feelings and whatnot, but I'm trying to stay positive, albeit my mind seems to have a different opinion.

Anywho, this week is gonna be quite a full on week.

Monday-Tuesday: Back to school to study with Ms. T for Music Studies exam on Weds while juggling time to do my Foodtech work

Wednesday: Final school exam paper (Music studies) of my life at 9.30am-12.30pm, do some Foodtech, getting ready with Rach in the arvo for graduation dinner at 7pm (I know, how unfortunate having my exam on grad day)

Thursday: Go to school to finish Foodtech

Friday: Hand in Foodtech (last school assignment of my life!) Freedom at last then back home for teaching at 4pm.

Saturday: Hopefully, shopping for TOMS!! Yay! So excited! But if mum says no to going to the city then I guess it's cleaning my room time. Meh

Sunday: Church in the morning. Chillax/cleaning room time.

I guess that's as "busy" as it gets for me! So glad that my holiday is just in a few days' time!! That means I have more time to blog, even though I don't think anyone reads this anyway but I don't blog for the sake of others. Sure, it'd be great if I became like a "known" blogger and earn some money off my daily rambles but basically this is just me being a modern girl "journaling" her life through her electronic "journal book". :]

Have a lovely night (day time for everyone else out of NZ)! Doesn't feel or look like 7pm because the sun is shining as bright as ever, which just reminds me that I'm few days away from Summer! Woohoooooo!! :] Bring on all the SPF-everything, shaved ice, ice-creams, coke, colourful tank tops, shorts, trusty Ray-ban aviators and jandals! Not to forget the awesome friends! :] Thinking about summer puts a smile on my face even though I've been in a shitty as mood this whole day!

taaa!

oh, the joy!

2011-11-25T18:41:00.001+13:00

doing my squinty-little-asian-eyes smile

I couldn't be more happy right now! :] some people might be annoyed with the cheesy grin on my face (that can't be wiped off, for now) but I don't care.

I just did my first "gig" at Mr. Taylor's house for the Blake teachers' celebration thingy! When he told me asked me if I'd do a 30-40mins performance/background music at the party I was quite excited coz I've never done a "performance" that long. When I confirmed to him that I'll do it he told me that he'll pay just a "little pocket money. " and asked me not to expect too much. I told him I didn't mind because it was the experience I was looking for! Long story short, I did like 40-45mins worth of singing and playing just the piano. Super relaxed and all, no pressure whatsoever; I just did whatever songs I wanted. When my time was up, he put the cash in my hand and let's just say I was shocked! It was way more than I ever expected. It's like double my usual teaching fee for an hour! And I got like double the amount I usually earn for an hour, in less than hour! *sorry for the repetition of words* Hope that made sense..?

So yeah. Don't wanna say too much but just wanna blog that I'm really happy and this made up for my shit audition for Uni yesterday.. Long story short, I was tearing up during my audition... It wasn't as good as I had hoped it'd go. Mehh. Won't let that ruin my mood again! :] wooohoooo :] Bring on the shopping next month! teehee!

2 down, 1 more to go

2011-11-23T22:24:00.002+13:00

The title is pretty self-explanatory. I'm just so glad Classics is over! Truly thank God that the questions were on topics I actually studied. Especially the vases section! Miracle, I say! The two vases- the Francois and Euphronios Vases (out of twenty vases that I was supposed to study) were in the paper! And I only studied them an hour before Bridd picked me up for the exam! Man, am I blessed or what? :] Can't believe out of twenty vases, the two vases that I studied were chosen to be in the paper! God is truly incredible! Anyway, albeit I'm cheerful and all, I don't think I've answered enough to pass but I hope I did! So yeah..

Now that that's off my mind, I have more important things to worry about such as my audition for uni tomorrow morning! OMG. I'm like nervous.. If you didn't know, I am going to uni next year. No gap year for me coz I will just be wasting time (to me at least, anyway). Since this is my last year of college, it's only sensible that I go to uni next year, no? Oh well. Anyway.. I applied to enter the School of Music at the University of Auckland to major in the Popular Music course for the next 4 years and hopefully graduate with an honour's degree! and then my pHd! Heehee :]

So yeah, now I basically have to retype and remember a whole paragraph that was supposed to be in this section but was lost because my internet sucks and blogger couldn't "connect the server" to save what was lost. Meh. Stupid NZ broadband..

Anyway, I'm nervous about my whole audition process coz that will determine whether I get to enter uni next year! So yeah.. no pressure right there... =.= Even though I won 2nd place last year and 1st place this year at the Songwriter of the Year, which was organised by the School of Music itself, you just can't be too sure sometimes.. But I know I have the Lord by my side! If it's His will for me to enter Uni then He will open this door for me, and if I don't get accepted, another door will be open for me, as Matty said last Sunday :] A verse that has been on my heart since May Gan last spoken to me before I left for NZ- Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you... plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

Such a powerful verse! Hope that blessed anyone who read it, just like it did me. :]

Why is it so hard to think of a decent post title?

2011-11-23T10:42:00.001+13:00

Hello again.

I've come back sooner than I thought I would, so hooray. I've added a chatbox, so feel free to leave a message. A nice one, if I may add. Thank you very much :]

3 more hours to my second exam- Classics. So not looking forward to it but at the same time, I just can't wait for it to be over so that I can move on to my third and final exam-Music Studies, of my school life. I shall then be an official high-school, or college (as the Kiwis call it) graduate by next Friday. Yay!

Anyway, back to the topic of Classics and exams. I have not studied as much as I wanted to because there's just too many things to grasp on this horrendous subject for my little procrastinating brain. "Why take it then if you hate it?", you may ask.. Well, simply because I'm not a Math or Science geek (no offense intended to people who do Math and any Sciences) as much as my dad wishes me to be, so I don't really have many subject options to take.. I've already taken all the Music subjects available to me, so all there's left for me to take are literature subjects or "English-enriched subjects" (as the Universities call them) since I can't do any form of painting/drawing/photography art to save my life.

So there you go. Hope that answers the too-often-asked question.. Anyway, I should start studying on Aristophanes' Frogs and Wasps with the very short amount of time I have left before I commit myself to the room of brain damages.

PS: JY (you know who you are ;] ), good luck for your exams hun. Sorry I didn't reply to you on cbox coz I knew I was going to delete it so I didn't bother. Hope to see you after next Friday! :]

Starting anew

2011-11-22T20:25:00.001+13:00

I know I haven't been updating this space for a long while now and I'm not gonna say "sorry" because I'm not sorry. I'm pretty sure I do not have regular followers waiting for me to update this.. Anyway, if you (whoever you are) have noticed, I've deleted all my past blog entries and everything that was on it because I feel that right now it's the time to start blogging again. So I thought to myself, "why not delete all other meaningless posts?" Yeah, that's basically it.. Pray that I can keep this blog interesting and more lively than I ever have before! :]

And I promise I'll update this blog regularly. Regularly = once/twice a week.. for now.

teehee!

PS: will be back to update the themes and all that shiz after my exam.. or most likely after my Classics exam (tomorrow) coz who wouldn't wanna get away from the books once in awhile? I know I do! But then again, I only have one more exam (Music Studies) next week then I'm off college for real! Bring on Uni, baby! Woohoo!

And what's a blog without photos? BORING. So here's a picture to kickstart this blog with a new diligent-blogging spirit! :]

living the "Korean" for 5 seconds